Thursday, May 08, 2008

Directions Please!

"If you don't know where you are going, you'll end up some place else." Yogi Berra

I don't know where I'm going next. Things - life included - don't always go as you planned. So, I'm kind of figuring out where my life is going next. I know some parts of it, but not all. I would prefer to be the driving force behind drawing the road map, but I know I don't control it all. In crime dramas, they do profiles to try and figure out what the bad guy will do next. So, I'm going to study me a little. Maybe that will help me figure out where I'm going next.

I like 70s music. I loved science as a kid, but blood is not my thing. I always wanted children and thought I would be a stay at home mom. I love my husband. I love dogs. I have ambitions. I enjoy being a big fish even if it's in a little pond. I like helping people. I like nice clothes, nice shoes. I like to travel. I like the beach. I don't much care for the cold. Republican ideals are not my ideals. I am mainly a Democrat, but don't know how I'll vote in November. I think New York is a fabulous city. Boston's not bad. Philly I could take or leave, LA too. San Francisco is fabulous, but too cold. I like girlie girl stuff sometimes, but not too girlie girl. I like my toes and nails painted, but usually do it myself. I like order in my world, but I'm not neat. I like routine. I fear getting old. I consider myself religious, but don't go to church much anymore. I really liked wearing my wedding gown. I'm afraid of heights. I need reassurance at times that I'm good at what I do. I like gardening. I wish I were thin naturally. I have a big chest and would much rather be normal sized. I was a nerd in high school. I have realized that I'm on the downside of the curve in my working years - I've worked more years than I have left until retirement. I would like to take back some of my dating choices. I got lucky in the husband department. I prefer having a road map, a plan, knowing where I'm going. Next post is going to be about where I've been - maybe that will help me figure out where I'm going. Maybe I'll have to just wait and see.


Dina said...

What a great post! I find it gets much harder to be self-reflective as I get older. Good for you for taking the time to sift through the noise and get back to yourself.

AlwaysJoy said...

I hope that wherever you go it brings you only happy things :-)