Wednesday, January 28, 2009
No happy post today
Today is a day with sad memories for me. The worst thing is that I feel alone in my sadness. I don't think anyone else realizes what today is - not even my husband. If our baby had been born and then died, everyone would remember, but because he never made it to being born, no one remembers today but me. It's not just the day I lost my baby either, it's the day I lost my dreams of being a mother, having a family of more than just me & A - the dream of a lifetime. So, I'm sure there will be moments today that I smile and maybe laugh, but it's just not a happiness day.